My unstable moment is now.
2009-03-22 01:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chiisanahitoThis isn't exactly the start-of-school-break kind of feeling I'm having right now.
For some reason, I'm not actually thrilled at the moment.
I have a whole week of no school, and I'm feeling like crap.
WTF is wrong with me?
Surfing the net becomes more and more mundane, I even see it as pointless lately.
Drawing becomes more and more crappy.
Reading becomes more and more of a bother.
Photography becomes more and more of a downer.
...like srsly, what the fucking fuck is wrong with meee?!
All I feel like doing is staying somewhere quietly and cry, maybe.
God.
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You know, I don't mean to betray anyone or anything, but
when you have friends, and they talk about someone else,
especially lately I thought that ;
"If they can talk about other people to me, they can talk about me to other people too."
I know that they're awesome people and won't ever do that to me,
but that's possible, yeah?
Close friends or just friends.
I believe in my close friends to not do that, cuz I won't.
But the ones that are 'friends'...
My trust in them can be shattered, and I don't wanna shatter it, at least not yet.
Although given the current events, I might have the desire to do that.
And I don't like it one bit.
So now I have trust issues. Haha.
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I've mentioned somewhere that I get irritated easily with repetitive stuff.
And when someone keeps repeating the same words over and over again, it gets on my nerves.
How about if that person is a friend?
Yeah I'd get irritated too.
What's the point of me typing all these again...
Ano saa.
Is it strange when you suddenly have tears welling up in your eyes?
When you're not sad at all?
Cuz I'm having those right now, shit.
I'm definitely not okay right now,
just that I have no idea why.
Someone help meee.
...or are these just because of hormonesss
Haha.
Okay done ranting.
GTG gonna cry moar now.
Cuz I'm a wuss like that.
Meh.
For some reason, I'm not actually thrilled at the moment.
I have a whole week of no school, and I'm feeling like crap.
WTF is wrong with me?
Surfing the net becomes more and more mundane, I even see it as pointless lately.
Drawing becomes more and more crappy.
Reading becomes more and more of a bother.
Photography becomes more and more of a downer.
...like srsly, what the fucking fuck is wrong with meee?!
All I feel like doing is staying somewhere quietly and cry, maybe.
God.
+++
You know, I don't mean to betray anyone or anything, but
when you have friends, and they talk about someone else,
especially lately I thought that ;
"If they can talk about other people to me, they can talk about me to other people too."
I know that they're awesome people and won't ever do that to me,
but that's possible, yeah?
Close friends or just friends.
I believe in my close friends to not do that, cuz I won't.
But the ones that are 'friends'...
My trust in them can be shattered, and I don't wanna shatter it, at least not yet.
Although given the current events, I might have the desire to do that.
And I don't like it one bit.
So now I have trust issues. Haha.
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I've mentioned somewhere that I get irritated easily with repetitive stuff.
And when someone keeps repeating the same words over and over again, it gets on my nerves.
How about if that person is a friend?
Yeah I'd get irritated too.
What's the point of me typing all these again...
Ano saa.
Is it strange when you suddenly have tears welling up in your eyes?
When you're not sad at all?
Cuz I'm having those right now, shit.
I'm definitely not okay right now,
just that I have no idea why.
Someone help meee.
...or are these just because of hormonesss
Haha.
Okay done ranting.
GTG gonna cry moar now.
Cuz I'm a wuss like that.
Meh.
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Date: 2009-03-24 08:16 am (UTC)now you're making me want to look for that song. thanks a lot. and i'm just about to go to bed too. *pouts*
kairo? no haven't heard of it...about ghosts stalking the web...man that's scary!! did i mention i was about to go to bed?! I'M SCARED NOW. HUG ME WHILE I SLEEP!!
*slaps self*
oh man. oh man oh man oh man. you'll do anything for my love, it seems.
shikata ga naiii. i'll wait for the time then!
*slaps self more*
blushing-brides...okay now YOU're going overboard! i feel bad for manrii Takapon now. he's trying hard to give off the manrii look!
but it doesn't seem that he's trying hard enough!eheh yep silver-bear is =3 i've wanted him ever since the first time i saw himmm~ plus it looks...'star'-ish 8D
lolz stuck-up bitch influenced me sono subject
Date: 2009-03-24 08:24 am (UTC)i'm gonna upload it and will give ya the link.
it is used for vocal exercises i believe..*pictures Ruki singing 'neko-chan'*
hai hai! it's not even THAT scary - the orig was a japanese movie, then they made an american-version of it...mehhhh.
hug you while you sleep then you slap yourself...daijoubo desu ka?and again.
enough with the slapping! you're making me think of self-mutilation now - don't be creeped out!
he is manrii - very very very manrii...just that a blushing bride suits him too...mehehehe...Takapon likes!
lol
stuck up bitch is like that eh, gets in your systemno subject
Date: 2009-03-24 08:54 am (UTC)ah, american-made japanese-origin movies never turn out as scary as it should be...from what i heard. since i'm not very into horror movies that much 8D; haha but if someone wants to watch it while i'm there, then it can't be helped -- i'll end up watching it too ne.
ah i'm straying off-topic there lolz.
hai nanka daijobu.
self-mutilation will never be in my mind! slapping myself is a way to...uh, remind me to not go off-topic! yeah, that's it!
ah i should really go to sleep now...weird words are forming in my brain, and none of em are comprehensible to the normal human mind >w>;
so...i'll sign off now, and good luck with finals!
brb, wanna dream of stuck-up bitch tonitebaicchu ♥
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Date: 2009-03-24 09:01 am (UTC)i'll try again laterz yo!
XD
the japanese movie was good - a bit dragging though. the american version was - cute, lolz. i mean, the style of the movie was cool.
ah true. good way to give yerself a reality check!
weird words like neko and Takapon and white-laces.
and stuck up bitchi will PRAY that you dream of stuck-up bitch.
~chuuu
and thanks!
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Date: 2009-03-24 05:10 pm (UTC)thanks!
neko. Takapon. white-laces.
don't they weirdly feel like they belong in the same group? HAHA
ah i didn't dream at all last night >w>; must be he's busy occupying another person's dream...or rather, occupying other people's dreamS. and it reached the max capacity! oh damnnn.
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Date: 2009-03-24 05:15 pm (UTC)it's already morning there...?!
and i'm still about to hit the sack
after thismehehehhe.
why yes, it all seem to work doesn't it - neko + Takapon + white-laces = a blushing Takapon!
lez hope i dream of him then.
~oyasumichuuuuu
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Date: 2009-03-24 05:23 pm (UTC)and oyasumi to you! GO SLEEP.
hnn i'd like to have a dream of a blushing Takapon instead...
prz do dream of him in my place. onegai.
hai chuuyasumi~ (i'm butchering up words here now, ain't i.)