Of emotions and randomness.

[chiisanahito]

It's ironic when,
you're listening to a song that you rather not want to
but at the same time, you're time being attentive to how the song captures you.

It just sucks.
And it's happening right now.

Without a Trace.
For once, I'm actually listening to a song for its vocals. Lately it has been for the guitars or drums.
I'd describe it as a sad song, emotional, gut-wrenching.
Even when I don't understand the lyrics, the music just makes me wanna drop down and suddenly have this sort of heart-gripping moment of tension and the feeling of being lost, unsure of what I want right now.
And that's exactly what I'm feeling right now.
But I just can't not pay any attention to the composition of the instruments, if that's what they call it.
The vocals are haunting. It sorts of tore me apart and reveal the hidden sadness inside of me.
The guitars are somewhat...lonely and just sad, like they want to grab someone's hands. Kind of. Jeez cheesy but true to me
The drums and bass, when they all went into the chorus, strengthens the feeling of wanting to have someone to help me get out of this loneliness and sadness.

I dunno, it's just me, I guess.
Plus with what I'm feeling right now, I dunno whether to laugh at the irony or just try to stabilize myself or something.
I want to have someone right now to just hold onto and cry my heart out.

Ah but no worries, it's just a small thing.

And congratulations to the GazettE as always for such a powerful song that I both hate and love for directly hitting the mark to what I'm feeling right now.
Damn you Ruki, your vocals made me feel like crying haha.

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Today we went up to Lake Arrowhead.
And back down a bit to Lake Gregory cuz there are nicer picnic spots there lolz.
The water was freakin' cold!
But the scenery was awesomely serene =3
We took a lot of pics with a borrowed SLR and had fun posing like idiots haha XD

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Oh -- I watched the making of Distress and Coma PV just now =3
It's been a while since any making of's were released ne.
My top two fav Gazegaiz got three different angles ufufufu
And I didn't realize there's a shot of Mr Fancy-Guitar-Twirl lowering down with his smex weapon guitar! Or maybe that's edited out.
Also I still can't get used to Mr Manrii-Bassist wearing anything with prints. Like his jacket, currently.
I know where Kai got the inspiration from for the scarf he's wearing around his neck! KAMEN RIDER YES. His wannabe idol XD
I guess everyone notices Uruha's green pants yeah? But surprisingly it didn't look weird at all in the PV. Cuz when the PV wasn't out yet, I kept feeling scared of how his pants might outshine them all *shot*
Ruki's hair is delicious Xd it looks so soft! I want his shampoo! Or hairstylist 8D

Ah, if anyone has clear shots of Aoi's shoes for the D&C look, prz to be showing em to me?
Cuz I dunno if what I saw was really that :
Fur-lined...shoes...thing HAHAHAHAHAAA okay that's absurd BUT I just want to see em more clearly X3

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Tomorrow's school as usual.
Agh I still want confirmation for my classes D=

A Reason to Smile today :
Food and friends by the lake =3

Comments

[saga-von-claus.livejournal.com]

That song was very haunting indeed which is WHY it's in the last part of my playlist. The melody and lyrics mesh completely.
wonders why everyone feels like crying when it comes to that song save for me
XD

As for Aoi's shoes, yes, your eyes weren't decieving you.
They wore the same clothes for Music Japan and you can see his shoes very well. but he owns the look anyways, sexy as hell still

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

it is? XD
the reason to that is cuz i already felt like doing so before i listened to it! and it went all downhill from thereee.
before this, i can't even get what the song wants to convey. how fail am i XD;

*phew* so i don't need my eyes checked, then~
i did watch Music Japan and i saw em shoes there too, that's why i want a clearer shot if i can XD and to laugh at shoes cuz i can't really relate any fur with shoes ahahahaaa *shot*
aside from the shoes though, i guess i like the look =3 esp the hair ♥ although honestly he has had better looks before *hides*

[saga-von-claus.livejournal.com]

Ah cus you were having a downtime way way back, yeah?
As of right now, Distress and Coma's the one's that's making melancholic...=]
But I guess, emotional-wise, we all differ, yeah?
which is why i didn't cry while listening to without a trace
But I did feel Ruki's passion and lament.
Man, his skills never cease to amaze me!

Hahahaha. Shitte imasu!
I was all 'Aoi and fur-shoes?! Nandaaaaaa...?!"
Oooooh, I beg to differ on that one - I like his look now...cus he's older?
*needs to shut up or will fangirl even more*

ps
oh i have to tell you that Ruki dream I had last night!
Someone was knocking on my door and when I opened it, Ruki was jumping up and down and he yelled 'I'm YOUR cousin.'
Okay, he CLAIMED that he's my cousin...the hell...XD

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

ah actually i was feeling miserable just a few hours ago lolz
but it's okay now since i thought : "ah the heck i'll just go through it headfirst" cuz that's how i've been dealing with it all these times.
and i haven't cried yet while listening to WaT but i hope i won't cuz...i wanna keep my machoness! GAHAHAHAHAAA
yeah we differ emotional-wise, true.
and i dunno if i wanna hate or love Ruki more now. damn the Chibi! XD

INORITE.
but i find it amazing that i can't pick on Uruha's pixie-green pants! how weird is this aaaaaa
oh i guess you prefer the older look then =3 i'm kind of half-half on the image now cuz...of the shoes *slaps self* no no, another to-be-honest confession! : i noticed he lacks visible eyebrows...only cuz i prefer full eyebrows. okay i'm random. and weird. now. but he looks 'off' without proper eyebrows! O___O i'm not making any sense now am i? XD;

ps too :
OMAIGOD NOWAI SRSLYYY?! he claimed that himself!! i can't imagine the Chibi jumping up and down -- oh wait, i actually can! plus the glee on his face must be 'O___O'-ing XDDD

[saga-von-claus.livejournal.com]

Awwww my chibi-nadia's feeling down again?
Good thing my depression vanished like molecules last night, after I bought myself a box of cookies. XD
you wanna keep...your...machoness...hooooookayyyyyyyy that was random
Hahahaha. XD
LOVE Ruki, you have to! cus i love him

Cus Uruha's been wearing rather, ummmm, *thinks* eye-catching clothes lately, so we can forgive him for that, but Aoi and fur-shoes, ehhhhhh.
Oh god, I noticed that too! No really, I started noticing last year, his eyebrows are so thinnnnnnn, dammit, Aoi!

Hai, hai! He was all "okay, lei, i'm YOUR cousin and you can't do anything about it!" and i said, "but - how is THAT possible?!" then he started rambling about B+ blood types and neat-freaks and cookies and Koron and accessories and I just stood there dumbfounded.

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

yeah but its ok now =3
see, cookies are the most powerful medicine people can have! why don't they give out cookies at check-ups and treatments and stuff, i wonder...
yes i wanna keep my machoness mm-hm. yep. *iz very macho nao*
oh okay then, i'll love him more just cuz you love him too. ufufu.

eye-catching clothes eh, Uruha...i guess so. in fact i don't think anyone else can get away with wearing green pants and rock a PV like he did. well maybe Miyavi but still.
YES I'M NOT ALONE IN THE EYEBROWS MATTER! *iz feeling more normal now*

and how's KORON came into the reasoning for being a cousin?!

[saga-von-claus.livejournal.com]

Ah good, good!
Yeah, and those were the milk-oatmeal type of cookies too, yumm!
Well they could probably, but it'll be overrated and we'll be tired of it.
XD
Okayyyyyy, machoness-chibi-nadia!
Whoz more macho - you or tora?!
Yay, Ruki's more loved now.

lolz, miyavi can rock ANY type of clothing.
But Uruha rock those lime-green pants so well, and Reita in prints, hnnnn.
Well, yeah, I mean, they were thin before but ever since last year - I just went all O_o. Psh, Aoi.

I dunno! Ruki just mentioned him. Haahahaha.
Probably cus I have a dog as well...ehhhhh

[hakitarun.livejournal.com]

wuh! long review of songs that encapture us in a world we dont want to be but... sometimes well to me, being in those dark emotions is er.. kinda states that we're human lulz...

haha i x tgk lagi making of =_= wheres my single hurry come........

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

ah. AH. i should've put the PV/making of review under a cut huh...sorry!! D:

but yeah i agree with being able to feel those dark emotions as a sign of being human =3