When I should be revising...

[chiisanahito]

Dear God,

Help me go through the finals week with much patience and concentration,
I'll need your guidance from the start til the end.
At least I don't want to freak out at any questions being thrown at me.

Ameen.

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You know,
there are people who are...how should I put it, double-faced?
Like, you know them in a certain way,
but then you see with your own eyes that they are not really what you take them to be.
God, I suck at words.
But maybe you get the point, yeah?

I used to have a few friends who'll call me when something's up or anything.
Not frequently, only once in a while, but at least we're up to each other's news.
I sensed that something's not exactly right at the moment,
but I ignored it cuz there was no problems at all at the time.

Then slowly, we grew further and further away.
And everything was quiet -- no news, no calls.
I didn't even try to ask, but then again, from the very start, it has always been them who'll call me up.
So they can't say that I'm the one who's changed.

Then stories emerged.
Little by little, stories of this and that came up.
None of them are good stories.
And what I sensed before was becoming more solid with each story being told.

I have no idea what feeling this is I'm feeling when I think of this.
But I know, 'betrayed' is somewhere in there.

I know I lack much interesting stuff to talk about,
but I don't really like dramas.
Over stupid stuff, even.

God.
What have the world come to?

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Some people can be annoying at times.
WTF MAN. DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS.
IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING AGAINST ME,
BE A MAN AND STEP UP GODDAMMIT.

Geez paranoiaaa.

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Damn I know I'm the only one having exams tomorrow but they're just distracting me!
ASDFGHJKL;

A Reason to Smile today :
Eikichi Onizuka ufufufu ♥

Comments

[uru-k-22.livejournal.com]

do your very best and get great grades! >_<

oh that kind of people is very easy to find... believe me. I was the kind of person that used to be a lot into dramas but I suddenly stopped because of that but apparently drama itself is after me even if i'm not the center of it >>;;

yeah, feeling betrayed is normal

*hugs*

have a great week!

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

great grades -- i'll try!

i'm not the center of it, but it's surrounding me all around, making me feel kind of suffocated and stuff. gah i don't like it.
plus it's all over some stupid things! >w>;

it's normal? haha...as long as i'm not the one betraying, i'll still feel kind of alright.
altho that still sucks somewhat X3

*hugs back*

thanks for commenting!
and a great week back to you too =3

[uru-k-22.livejournal.com]

>w<

oh well... I understand since that's exactly the kind of drama that's around me. one tiny thing makes everyone burst

hahaha of course. I mean feeling betrayed because of what happened is normal, even more when it comes from a friend

<3

[saga-von-claus.livejournal.com]

ahhh. ganbatte ne!
XD

and i've gone through that phase as well.
i had this friend then - when the 2nd term started he stopped talking to me and making it appear as though i'm the one who should approach and start a convo and shit and my friends started noticing.
idiot thinks he's too cool for his own good what the hell
then some of my friends told me that he's 'waiting' for me to talk to him and i just decided to not waste my time on the issue anymore.
some people are just fucktards
yeah.

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

hai ganbaruuu

EXACTLYYY -- i don't wanna waste my time thinking bout this nemore!
man i just want to know what's going on between us that's making us feel this awkward.

and lol fucktards -- this is random but, the first time i heard the word 'fucktard' is from this series...and that series is where i learnt cussing from HAHA. yes i'm easily influenced, language-wise.

[vanilla69.livejournal.com]

Good luck with your exams ;__;
You're probably just about to write them, aren't you? XD

I don't really know what you mean... but well. There are people who are double-faced, yeah. Some just don't show their other side ever 8D Alright, I know this is not what you mean XD
Guess I stopped caring at some point but yeah, they should just tell you if they don't like or whatever. If you want to talk about it though, you should!

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

thank you =3
i managed to finish one paper just now, now...four more to go! >w>;

ah, actually you're not that far off -- i mean, yeah some people don't show their other side to certain people! more like they have different identities when facing different people. haha.
oh well i'll let it go for now.

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

Ahh so this is what you're experiencing at the moment (I had weirdly passed this without noticing, my fpage floods so it's likely to happen).

Well. Sad if you feel you've been betrayed by someone you've taken liking to. It must feel uncomfortable (at the worst it can make you go paranoid about just everyone--don't get that far, some are just crap unoe).
As pointed above; fucktard(ness)s happen(s) to be around. Wish you'll toss it away and feel better and let you finish the finals week gracefully.　頑張って！ (+ Prayers will be heard when you give a shot yourself) :)

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

haha it's ok. i flood much too, so XD

the betrayal isn't very extreme to me, but my friends (= my housemates = my usual group of people haha~) are the ones being talked bad about. pft i don't want to care, but it keeps coming back to me and stuff.

and yea i just hope i get to finish the finals at least safely XD;
thanks =3

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

You flood just fine but combining everyone's flooding together=outta controoool
lawl.

Yeah well, if it's around your friends, it must bounce around you too. In our case (me and my friends), however, it seems to be minor/just stupid shit-all-around. Meh.

Fufu heh.