Little thoughts.
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chiisanahitoI was once known as sarcastic.
I'm proud of it, actually.
I dunno, to me, sarcasm is a form of art...or something.
HAHA okay that's crap, but still.
Not many people can get sarcasm right.
Oh I discovered something about myself :
I'm impatient when it comes to some obvious things.
Like when someone asks me what's happening out there when clearly I've been with them in here -- how am I supposed to know?
Also especially regarding watching any tv shows -- don't be asking me : "What's going on? What happened?" -- if you want to know about it, then keep quiet or at least pay attention to what you're watching instead of bugging other people.
IT'S RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF YOU.
Another thing,
Recently I sort of lost my ability to laugh as freely as I would have a year ago.
I dunno if this has anything with growing up, but I think it's not cuz this 'transition' started around when 2009 kicked in.
Like, as 2009 comes, I suddenly changed into this less-laughing person.
It's awkward. I used to laugh at any little things, and was more patient, and at least was able to look people in the eye longer.
Now I'm just...more introverted, more quiet.
Even my friends notice this.
Maybe it's the load of homeworks.
But...ah heck I don't care anymore.
Lately too, people are getting distant with each other.
For example, we live in the same area, but we don't look at or acknowledge each other when we pass by.
It's like "WTF?" you know?
Plus, we used to laugh and talk together, so now why are people becoming so distant?
It's amazing yet frightening what one year can do to us.
...for now at least, I want to feel a little happiness.
I dunno why, it's not exactly that I'm sad or unhappy, but it's just...I can't feel like I can smile freely.
I'm proud of it, actually.
I dunno, to me, sarcasm is a form of art...or something.
HAHA okay that's crap, but still.
Not many people can get sarcasm right.
Oh I discovered something about myself :
I'm impatient when it comes to some obvious things.
Like when someone asks me what's happening out there when clearly I've been with them in here -- how am I supposed to know?
Also especially regarding watching any tv shows -- don't be asking me : "What's going on? What happened?" -- if you want to know about it, then keep quiet or at least pay attention to what you're watching instead of bugging other people.
IT'S RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF YOU.
Another thing,
Recently I sort of lost my ability to laugh as freely as I would have a year ago.
I dunno if this has anything with growing up, but I think it's not cuz this 'transition' started around when 2009 kicked in.
Like, as 2009 comes, I suddenly changed into this less-laughing person.
It's awkward. I used to laugh at any little things, and was more patient, and at least was able to look people in the eye longer.
Now I'm just...more introverted, more quiet.
Even my friends notice this.
Maybe it's the load of homeworks.
But...ah heck I don't care anymore.
Lately too, people are getting distant with each other.
For example, we live in the same area, but we don't look at or acknowledge each other when we pass by.
It's like "WTF?" you know?
Plus, we used to laugh and talk together, so now why are people becoming so distant?
It's amazing yet frightening what one year can do to us.
...for now at least, I want to feel a little happiness.
I dunno why, it's not exactly that I'm sad or unhappy, but it's just...I can't feel like I can smile freely.
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Date: 2009-01-21 01:28 pm (UTC)You sound like things were good on you in other ways so it's hard to give any "judge", rly. (And as I'm not you, that too)
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Date: 2009-01-21 03:03 pm (UTC)ah i don't sound too thankful there, i'm really ashamed of that DX haha. ah lately all i've been doing is bitching about stuff, instead of being grateful. meh XD
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Date: 2009-01-22 10:10 pm (UTC)But if humans were never dissatiesfied, they wouldn't keep it up, ay? Like achieving thing--there's this hunger, troubled feeling how everything's not nice&cool&suave. But of course, at the same time we should be grateful, not just letting this dissatisfaction get out of its leash. Like, you need it. But not to let yourself to be tormented/feel crappy about everything.
I'm veeery discontent for most of the time but all the same I am very grateful for I can have bus rides from home to school (25km!) and back to home again, food to stuff myself with, electricity, good-qualified tap water..yeah. But never it's enough.