On a Thursday, amidst the homeworks.

[chiisanahito]

Another aquarium pic at Miyavi's MySpace blog =3
It's hard to take pics in aquariums without using flash, so I wanna go to where he took that picture XD
The one I went to in San Francisco is still number one though X3

Recently here it's been warmer and warmer.
Is winter leaving that early?
Nights are still cold tho, but still.
Global warming maybe? Or something else.

I went to the Malaysian Students Association (MySA) meeting a few hours ago.
Somehow, or maybe it's just my feeling, I don't feel happy at all.
My friends can't come cuz they had lab work, so I was kind of alone.
Well not really, I'm friends with the others too, but it's just not the same, you know?
I have less to talk about with other people, I don't feel that comfortable as I do with my usual friends.
Even with my usual friends I'm not that hyper or anything but at least I don't feel intimidated or left out or alone.
I mean...I admit I don't mingle around with the others much, since 1) the majority of them are Biotech majors so I don't see them much at school, 2) I can't really connect with them, and 3) I feel like I'm forcing myself to talk with them somewhat.
And, again, this is just me, but I feel like I'm just pretending to be nice if they talk to me. Like they're not really as nice as they appear to be.
Yes I'm THAT paranoid, and yes, I'm THAT bad, I know.
Ah I dunno nemore.

There are times when I feel I have no one to talk to at all.
Anti-social much?

Ah well.

A Reason to Smile today :
I'm still alive in a peaceful place, not in war, not fearing if any missiles will hit me.

Comments

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

Oh girl we're in the same boat. I never approach people, they're usually the ones talking to me first. So whenever I already know someone, I'll talk & always talk with her so we'll become close & I won't be alone. Being alone isn't fun.. ;(

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

..omg is it just me or the font in your journal is really small? XD;; Maybe I need to re-check my eyesight.. @__@;

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

ah, people talk to me first too >w<;;
and this boat we're in, i just hope it's secure enough to at least last til we graduate, and of course, even longer =3

and i'm so sorry if the fonts are uber-small, cuz they are XD
prz no to be getting serious eye damage or something?
ahaha~

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

Yeah I hope it will last longer, at least til I'm already working.

Haha it's okay, I can still read it. XDD Just that my eyesight has somewhat become worse... I need to change my glasses.

[hakitarun.livejournal.com]

YOURE NOT ANTISOCIAL!

youre just... a Secret $ocial Rioter like me XD

man i feel the same to yknow...

and... er... lol stop being jealous of meevers pretty pics :P

[hakitarun.livejournal.com]

*too

mai engrish phail nao all yur fault D:

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

I'LL NEVER END THIS JEALOUSY OF MIYAVI'S PICS!!
cuz they're too cool DX he can take AWESOME pics!!
so now i have a competitor at photography lolz XD

oh we *are* $ECRET $OCIAL RIOTER$ XDDD
i rike!! beri berii naisu X3

and yes i take all the blame for your english phail gladly ufufu XD*

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

Do you have the tendency of feeling awkward in other people's presence? I guess many experience that as people who you aren't in closer terms with, well. You don't really know them. But written it here, it sounded like you're shy or something else along those lines. But noe worries, it's common.
Paranoidish stuff, not too good (it can be kinda overhelming).

That's a good reason for smiling. And you have stuff to full your tummy, that's something I'm very greatful about (as I'm kinda scared by the though the global warming will flip the world out and turn things extra shitty for everyone with less food and all. Anyway, it's good tho' I have lacking appetite these days).

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

yes i have that tendency, haha. i'm...well, you can say shy, but it's not like i dunno the people at the meeting, you know. i can talk with them, but with a different degree of 'fun'ness...or something. like i can't be as open as i can be with my usual friends =3
and paranoia, i feel it too much i think *shot*. ahaha. but i just kept quiet and try to think of better, more beautiful stuff instead of trusting other people...that still sounds very paranoid eh? *FAIL*

i wrote that specific reason cuz there are many nations at war currently, and when i imagine myself being there, it just...scares me. and here i am complaining about a lot of stuff while there are people who are suffering more terribly than me. it just put things in perspective, you know. so...yeah. (but your appetite is worrying -- GO EAAAT XDDD)

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

Ah yes, I'm familiar with that, too. I'm actually rather so-called good at chatting with people, meaning it comes rather easily but the different thing is if I really like it, a different degree of "fun"ness as your words reflected it.
Lawl indeed. How'bout..more beautiful stuff instead of thinking people being asses/something?

It's hard to know how it's like, both fortunately and unfortunately--no'one should never go through a war/feel it but it's easy to be whiny without all that. Perspectives wooo!.
(It's been like that for a moment but no worries, I eat no matter what - can't take the weak feeling of not having eaten anything, it's sucky)