Haro thar.

[chiisanahito]

Reading thru my flist (which is short, since I don't have many people there...haha) I realized that everyone is going through a constant changing process, or something like that.
Like, I know people from this one perspective, but the longer I know them, more perspectives come out.
It's similar to building a complete image of a jigsaw puzzle : you have one piece, and as you try to figure out the full picture, you look for/find the connecting pieces, one by one.

And people are more than what meets the eye.
You don't expect them to be only one-dimensional -- the only dimension you know of that someone is the one you initially know him/her for -- people have lots of other interests and differences and stuff.

On another note :
I think I'm...dunno what's the word for it, but it's sort of like, if I'm not here, it doesn't change anything.
I don't contribute anything to anyone, I realized.
I don't do much for anyone, I can't do much, I'm not even much of a help.
I dunno.

I can be sooo emo at times, eh.



...sometimes I think I'm a paedophile MWAHAHA. Okay that's just weird and too random.

A Reason to Smile today :
SNOOOW. I got to play/run/jump in the snow XDDD

Comments

[hakitarun.livejournal.com]

...... *cough*pedofile*cough*

hmm... you're still searching, actually we all are still searching.
if you saw in your flists as many pieces of jigsaw puzzles, so do we...see you as many...er..perspectives... pieces of... pizzle piece...?

....

lol sorry! what a bad way of trying to convey it in 2nd language but i hope you get the main point XDDD

hmm its just we are a harsher critique on ourselves, nee...

ah! im so jealous with your drawing skills... where did you learn anyway? i actually print out your kai birthday tribute sketches XDDD lol~ at first i dint even realize the one posting was you wuhuhu!

dont hate meh

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

I DON'T GET YOUR POINT AT ALL XDDD
haha jk jk =3 i get it, don't worry ♥

last night i was at the highest point of emo-ness (that's a normal thing btw) so all these crap came out, and after i woke up this morning (= just now) i felt better =3 eheh.

jealous with my drawing skills? nooo. i can only sketch stuff, i'm no good at inking and proper coloring, really...ahaha. mm i don't really learn, i just...at first copied from manga, and then develop my own style...and that's it. *flails*
ah you printed out those? i'm so honored XD it's okay, it's the same as me not realizing that you were the one who translated Radio Jack at first 8D
don't hate meh too~

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

ah, pedophile-thing -- i'm that crazy XD
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA okay i should stop now.

don't hate meh for this too. *hides*

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

I guess I could include myself in that group of people of constant change. Even if you can't tell it from the outside, more like meaning the people around me mostly everyday - those kind of people are blinder for changes-..there's a heavy traffic inside my head consisting of observing and looking for things, analyzing and realizing. Idunnoooo but I feel very hectic inside tho' I definitely don't seem like that, being a passive person and all. It's my head being active, haha. Altough life can be very painful, the curiosity won't let me stop the tramble.

Awn you emo. Even if your role didn't seem like something major, you're a part of the wholeness. Lacking you the structure is not the same anymore. Not everyone have some youknow, so-called "big" meaning of their lives; not all of us become arising stars to be remembered later on but you do have your own place. It's about which way you find the most of your liking and follow it, to me the meaning is a lot about that. Follow the flow and listen to your heart and that works miracles.
But sure I have these kind of feelings myself too, as I'm young, so are you.

About the pedophil-part; I sometimes feel like that too. AHAHAH SNORT
err. Or maybe you're an ephebophile! Neither that, too.
WEIRD AND RANDOM IT EEES

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

i kind of observe people more too, than engaging in any form of communication with them. i dunno, i prefer being at the side trying to see how people socialize. am i too lazy to be a social-contributor? eheh.

i know that everyone has their own part in this whole big world, and that if one doesn't exist then it'd be different -- but it's just, maybe it's a difference for the better...see, emo-ness again~ i do try to listen to my heart, but at times my heart's just non-responsive, you know?
eh i'm still young, yep, that's true =3

nooo definitely NOT ephebophile~ well, maybe, but...mm, how bout a hebephile then? AHAHAHA ROFLMAOtothemax XD
sometimes my randomness gets off its leash, sorry about that *runs after it*

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

Yeah me too. I'm sort of the type to sit in a coffee by windows and just watch in silence when people hurry by. More of an introvert I am anyway, tho' I can act rather social if I want.

Yes, a heart can feel cold and not communicative at all but it should be heard out every now and then, even if it was no use. Just for the sake of it trying, it'll give you some hint eventually.

..Rofl now I'm kinda confused about all these ephedophile-hepebhile-thingies, life's freaky. LOLLERCOPTERRRRR!!11+1+1
Nah it should go rampant sometimes, otherwise life becomes boring. *let's off the leash in her hand*

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

i'd like to sit in a coffee shop and do just that. but there's no coffee shops here (i live in a DEAD place haha) so i have no idea where to sit to watch people. ah, back in Malaysia, when i had the time to go on trains from mall to mall (i loved doing that), i'll just look at people and think "where is he/she going? who are they meeting?" you, know, stuff =3

okay, to put it simply : I LIKE YOUNGER BOYS/GUYS HAHAHAHA cuz they're way cuter XDDD prz to be shaking me off this weirdness nao kthxbai.

[harakanraakku.livejournal.com]

Aw. Long to the centre of the town?
Wow interesting, I've never taking it that far (as I hate malls and all, just today [actually yesterday as it's Sunday here] I went looking for pants and it was some pain. Darn bargain sales).
But I do/did(?) that same thing, yeah. "What kind of a family does this person have? Friend, what kind? Studies/occupation?" and so on.

I've heard someone saying how it's better to take (marry) a guy younger as men die younger and they'll have more energy and this and that, hah. LET'S TRY IT OUUUT
It's not weird. It's.. RATIONAAAALLL
and pedophile

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

Talking about changing, even though I have many people in my Flist (which I'm planning to do friends cut but I just can't, probably because my journal isn't my 'personal' blog anymore, which I don't mind if strangers read XD) they're all changing to people like... I've never known before. Haha~ GazettE started our relationship, but nowadays everyone has changed to different fandom. I feel a bit lonely, but I guess I'm just one of them. XD

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

yeah, that exact feeling!!
my fandom...i dunno, maybe cuz i'm still new to the band, so i'm still stuck to it (wahaha n00b me) but it does feel lonely somehow >w

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

I still like GazettE (at least I still like GazettE, even if I'm slow with other bands, since most of my Flist are in GazettE fandom anyway XD) but I don't go like "GAZETTO YEAH RAWRRRRR!" like I used to before. XD Haha oh man, changing is difficult coz then you just... lost your friends. (>_<)

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

ah, i used to feel like that for Miyavi XD and now it became : "ah, he's gonna release something new again...when...?"
it used to be : "OMG OMG OMG NEW RELEASE ON THE *insert date* -- 2 MONTHS AWAY OMG CAN'T WAIT!!"
duuude how fangirly can i be

but bout losing friends, we're not really 'losing' them -- it's more like, we don't have much to talk with them about since our faves change from time to time...that doesn't mean we lose them ne.

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

Quick reply! I bet you're on YM. XD

HAHA yeah exactly! XD I used to be like that, if you check my previous entries. Just how retard I can be when it was about GazettE. XD Esp on magazines, the preview of the cover can make me nervous & excited at the same time. XD

True but I think, when we're in different fandoms, we just lost interest to comment on each other's journal anymore, even when we're talking about anything un-related to any fandom. .__. I know not all people are like that, but there are some. XD

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

lolz i are on YM XD

wahaha so we can be retards on the current stuff we like/love/obsess (pick one)XDDD but sometimes old fandom come back to me tho, even for just a bit =3

oh right right, true. but, like i said, my flist is VERY short, so i don't have many people to comment on, but when people write about stuff you're just not interested in, how can you put your thoughts on it eh? haha.

[rinka88.livejournal.com]

sometimes old fandom come back to me tho, even for just a bit
lol that's what happening to me now. XDD Well maybe some times in the future, I will return to GazettE & Vkei fandom. XD Let's just hope & wait, haha~!