Weird and confused.

[chiisanahito]

I'm confused with myself right now.

I feel --
frustrated
guilty
doubtful
angry
sad
slightly blissful
messed up
troubled
restless
tired
drained
exhausted
worried
sick
scared
left behind
betrayed
-- all at the same time.

And I have no idea at all why those emotions are in here right now. There are no basis for everything I'm feeling, honestly. What I really know is that I'm perfectly content with what I have now, for the time being --
I'm not stressed, my exams just finished and I have 3 weeks of break laid out in front of me;
I'm definitely not having a PMS cuz my time for this month has just passed;
I'm not involved with any relationship problems;
I just had a nice chat with a friend, and I actually felt good having that chat session;
I had enough sleep;
I'm eating right, albeit that I only had one meal today cuz I spent the rest of the day sleeping;
I'm not having any fights with anyone;
I can't say I feel lonely cuz I chose to be by my own today since I had a long day yesterday;
I'm...I dunno anymore.

Does this have something to do with lack of sunlight? D': But even if it does, this mess of emotions is just too extreme only to be caused by that...fuck I hate this. It's too weird.

Sorry for the bitching.

Comments

[saga-von-claus.livejournal.com]

Nadia~
I miss you! ♥
And don't mind those feelings. It happens to the best of us.
:)

[chiisanahito.livejournal.com]

aw now i actually feel embarrased for having written this messed-up post lol. thanks for reading it btw :D
and...yeah, you're right. it felt unbearable at the time though.

missing you too X3

[m1zun0.livejournal.com]

Chill out nadia. Hope you are feeling better now. If not I'll treat you boba or something. lol~