deep misery.

You know how I feel right now?
FUCKING PISSED OFF.
MIGHTY MISERABLE.
PRETTY DEPRESSED.
FUCKING PISSED OFF AGAIN.

I didn't say why in my other blog cuz I don't want my parents to worry, but let me say it here.
MY DEARLY BELOVED LAPTOP IS MISSING.

I'm not blaming anyone, I just want to know where it is.
It may even be in my house, it's just that I have no idea where.

It started when they changed the furnitures in my house on Monday. 
I left the laptop on my desk, with charger, mouse and iPod charging cable still attached.
And then I went to school, til about 4.00 pm or so when I reached home.
Of course, the first thing I looked for is my dear laptop.
But all I could find, on the floor, are the attached things, unattached.
Without the laptop.

I checked all drawers and under beds, anywhere possible, in case they removed the laptop to someplace safer.
Nil.
I went to the office straight away, and the lady went to my house and helped to look around for a bit, and she told me to give them (the people in charge of changing the furnitures) til 10 am Tuesday.
And I even gave them til today, Wednesday.
I even let my number be given to the head or whatever of the company in charge of this furniture change.
I checked the doors -- the front door wasn't closed, which is not very surprising cuz even the cleaners who come every month will leave it open after they're done cleaning. But the worrying thing is, the side door of my room, the one leading to the store room outside, wasn't locked. I'm not sure if I've locked the door after all these while, since I haven't touched the door for a long time, and I know I have a habit of forgetting to lock that door, but it just adds to the worry. Plus the blankets and pillows I've stacked against that door was knocked over -- they fell into the room, like someone pushed it from the outside (the door).
Now I'm not even sure if this has anything to do with the furniture-change or not.
I don't want to blame anyone, I just want my laptop back.

It's not much of a problem if they can confirm it 100% that it's GONE or irrecoverable or something, cuz I don't want to dwell on the hopes of ever getting it back when in reality I won't.
I'm having my finals tomorrow and next week, so fuck them, I don't want to be thinking of problems right now.

The laptop.
It's been with me for 2-3 years, okay, it's been with me almost all through my life after my high school ended.
It's lucky I have an external hard disc, so almost all of my downloaded/studies/miscellanous files are in there.
Also I set my laptop to not ever remember my password and username for anything, including banks, school and housing accounts.
The thing that gets me worried is the stuff in My Document, cuz I can't really remember what I have there -- maybe personal documents with passwords or something.
And, this is irrelevant as of this time, but there are pictures of my fandom in there. Pictures of Miyavi, alice nine., the GazettE, majorly. Yeah I can look it up again, but it just won't be the same.
What's more, Disc 3 of the GazettE's "Nameless Liberty Six Guns tour final" is IN THERE. I didn't even finish watching it yet.
Not to mention shortcuts, saved links, Photoshop.
The laptop is quite heavy, by the way. 
With the front-left side of the keyboard kind of been pulled off, like it had been pried open or something. But that's what made my laptop MINE.

AAAAAARGH.
THIS IS SO FUCKING IRRITATING.
GIVE ME AN UPDATE ON MY BELOVED LAPTOP'S WHEREABOUTS ALREADY.
I JUST WANT IT BACK, I DON'T WANT A NEW ONE.